December... Feeling Disconnected
December is a very strange month, the end of the year, and in one perspective, is very busy in terms of finishing off things, indeed with regard to commercial web development work, that has been the case, a lot of finishing off web designing and coding. It has also been a time to head down to London and work on various things with WeFab project, then heading back and collaborating over Skype. On the other though, it has still shown the difficulty in travelling, having to disappoint a few people by not being in London at the right time, and missing out on a lot of the Social activities, the final meet ups with London friends who have really made my year.
Its a shame that I seem to miss out on a lot of things then. I really would have liked to go to the Space Makers party, not only to meet London friends to wrap up an amazing year, but also to help in the Promotions and various projects that will happen in the Brixton Space with the project Im working on.. A conversation I had with Ed over skype this evening, just about various Drupal fixes brought up the question about where I am from, which resulted in a google map highlighting the farm on the edge of Birmingham to cries of, "thats where travel to London from?" This is part of the problem, similar to the time at the RCA where I had no home and was commuting down, it leaves one disconnected from the people I have been connected to, and much harder to establish new connections on my own from the village, even travelling into the centre of Birmingham to establish myself there has proven difficult at times, though that is because I'm still focused on getting back to London and my work connections there.
Perhaps though the Birmingham thing can happen in the new year, to be honest, I have been distracted with other things too often to pursue it, though I am convinced that my fortunes (or otherwise) belong in London, that is where my main contacts are, and that is where the work and friends are too. It's difficult to but it into words, but I was able to get out and talk to people while I was in London, and it's not the same on the farm, and being here, rather than being the quiet sanctuary to work on developing more interesting projects, has instead become a place where I feel I have to retreat in taking on commercial work to show that I am doing something, but that is a topic for another time.
In the mean while, I need to make decisions about my own future, and how I want to feel reconnected, and doing so is urgent as it is the key to getting back to developing (and actually implementing) many of my ideas for more interesting projects, and I really feel that means I have to get back to London... so time to indulge in my favourite past-time post new year?
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